First Post of The New Year

 

 

 

I almost decided to give up on this blog thing, but it’s a new year so I figure why not. I haven’t written here in a while but I’ve been writing in my journal quite a bit. I’m ready to write from a bit more serious angle, because writing is what gets me through the day. I’m now going to share a somewhat condensed version of my journal that I wrote at the beginning of this year:

Last year was interesting. Filled with ups and downs to say the least. I know that I need a change but I’m not even sure where to start. I have quirks and faults just like the next person, and I need to get to a place where I’m okay with them. Obviously that’s easier said than done because I still have days when I want to sleep all day and block out everything because waking up is just hard. Unfortunately sleeping doesn’t make your problems go away; they’ll be there when I wake up.

I need to except who I am because I’m actually an okay person. Everyone wants to excepted by at least a few people, but I’m conflicted. On the one hand, I do want to be liked, missed, and wanted. I want to be around people and go out. On the other hand, I want to stay in the house, listen to music, write and just enjoy being alone. Is that normal? And what is normal anyway?

I want this year to be positive and productive, interesting and inspiring. Iv’e change the people who I look up to and I think that is helping me immensely. I look up to the underdogs, and the people deemed different. I’m no longer inspired by some of the superficial women today, that so many girls do. I’m inspired by the men and women who don’t always have that outside beauty. It’s the people who you have to get to know somewhat, to find out just how amazing they are. People who don’t need to show off or be out of control all the time just to be liked and get attention. Just down to earth people like Johnette Napolitano, Ivan Moody, Nikki Sixx, and Kat Von D to name a few. I guess beauty can’t really defined, because there’s inside and outside beauty. Beauty is in the eye of the beholder.

This year I also realized that it’s great to have good positive people in my life. It doesn’t matter if I don’t talk to them everyday, or if they live around the world. It’s just good to know that no matter where they are, that the memories will always connect us.

I guess I want anything in my life to change, I’ve got to do something about it. So far this year has been good, and I’m trying to keep it that way.

Peace, Love, & Positive Vibes

Book Of the Day

The Tattoo Chronicles by Kat Von D . I am such a big fan, and with this book, you get to see a little bit more into Kat’s personal life as well as the tattoo life. Her first book, High Voltage Tattoo is really great too..I have to post about how much I adore Kat <3

You Don’t Have To Call

So A nice boy comes up to you and you begin to talk
He seems nice so when he asks for your number, you give in

Later that night he texts you whats up?.
I do not answer

Next night. Same text
I do not answer

I can not stand when guys text and call too much. Obviously if I’m not answering my phone, that means that I don’t want to talk to you…duh a

I’m the kind of girl who needs space. I’f I’m with you then I’m with you so there is nothing to worry about, just relax and stop calling

No cute texts everyday, or the “I just called to say hello”…NOOOOOOO

One a week calls are fine

Don’t judge me. I’m not a bad girl, I just can’t take clingy,mushy,needy,”I have to call everyday”, guys.

Are there any guys out there who are fine with this? If so call me….but not too much

In the Middle

I must say that I thought my Art App class was going to be fun…boy was I wrong. DEAD wrong

MY teacher spends like the whole hour-long class period talking about paint strokes,textures, and other boring crap that no one cares about
You could probably hear our snores in Siberia

The only good thing about it is that I sit in the back with a nice group of fellas who I think loath the class as much as I do

Anyway I always got along with boys more anyway because they are more chill and nice…
I’ll try to make the best out of the class by using it for social hour and nap time

……………………………………..oh sorry, I fell asleep just thinking about that class

For Holden

For these last couple of days since school started, I began feeling more and more like Holden Caulfield each day.
I’m getting sick of people and want to be alone. Maybe its a phase, maybe it will last forever, who knows.

Anyway, I’m quite sad that J.D. Salinger is gone. I have to say that The Catcher in The Rye is one of my all time favorite books. I always feel such a connection to Holden Caulfield every time that I read it. I feel as if I knew Holden, like we were friends. Reading that book makes me feel that he is a good friend of mine because we relate so well.

I don’t know if there will ever be another book that speaks to me as well as Catcher in the Rye.
It’s funny because I never thought I would connect with a male character like that but I have

R.I.P J.D.
“Dont ever tell anybody anything. If you do,you start missing everybody”  -Holden Caulfield

Picture by- Carmela Alvarado

http://www.flickr.com/photos/carmelaalvarado

To Tell or Not to Tell

Obviously I enjoy writing, I’m a journalism major.

One thing that I loved to do in school and still do now are picture prompts.
Dont get me started on those….how I adore them

When I get magazines or see any kind of picture, I’m tempted to write a story.
   I tempted easily, with pictures,music,movies, you name it

Which is why I just made a Tumblr account.
I can put up pictures of anything and write my story or quote or poem

It is magic and I love it
You should get one because they are AMaZinG

http://flowerchild09.tumblr.com/

Too Many Flavors

I park my car in the school parking lot, lock the door and head to class.
As I’m walking throughout the campus, I see nothing but hotties!!

How lucky am I. There are amazing looking guys of every flavor, all around me.

I have not talked to anyone yet because I’ve only been in school for 3 days but hopefully as time passes by, I will have positive encounters with some of those hotties.

It’s a new year and a new herd of boys and I’m on a prowl

Raise your glass to a new year filled with amazing and hopefully cool boys that I can hang with

Book of the Day

The Collected Stories of Lydia Davis

Great book (obviously The New Yorker said so)

Big World

Tuesday was my official first day of college…

I have to say that it was somewhat scary but it was still fun because I know that I’m growing up.

The only con to this story is that I have to buy books which are expensive!!!!!! Lower the prices people

Open Road

I’m about to get a car but I must say that I am not a big fan of driving. I like it but then again I don’t.
People are crazy out on the road, and just don’t care

Sometimes I like being behind the wheel but most of the time, I like sitting in the passenger’s seat and staring out the window.
Maybe I should hire a chouffer….a very cute one

Sigh……
BTW this whole college thing is looking a wee bit foggy at this moment. Sigh…..